My Mama

I have been a little MIA these last few weeks. I went to Belize on a mission trip and then I went to Florida to see my grandma because she has not been doing well. I found out that she had been diagnosed with Alzheimer’s. Now I didn’t go by myself, I went with my mom. My mom has been the most influential people in my life whether she knows it or not. I am someone who has dealt with lots of medical issues, not as many as my sister, but I have been in the hospital for a period of time. I have had multiple head injuries and my mom has stayed by my side through all of it. Something that makes my mom special is the fact that she is a stay at home mom. For a while, it was something that she felt ashamed of, but she has learned to embrace it and now wouldn’t want to do anything else. When she would be in a group of women they would all talk about their jobs and how they raise so much money or what their coworkers were doing and she would just have to sit back and slowly remove herself from the conversation. We would go to the doctor and on the form to fill out it asked what her occupation was and she would put stay at home mom, and every time she dreaded that question. I never understood this when I was younger because to me my mom was the most amazing person to me (except for those middle school years, we’ve all been there) and she still is. She would drop anything to be with me when something was wrong. Over the last few years while my sister has been in and out of the hospital she finally came to the realization that she has the coolest job. Of course, she wishes that it paid (don’t we all) but she really does have the most amazing and most impactful job not only in her children’s lives but the lives around her as well. Now I want to make a point to say that moms who also have jobs are just as important if not more important, but due to my family’s health issues my mom has had the responsibility of having to be there for us 24/7. I am telling you this, because as people we don’t always embrace the role that we have been placed in, in life. I know I definitely don’t because in my eyes someone is always doing something more important than me or getting more attention due to their looks or social status. It is something that bothers me, but then I have to remind myself that there is a reason that I am in the position I am in. It could be that I am supposed to impact lives in a different way than the person who is doing the exact same thing as I am. That is exactly how my mom was and still is feeling. Of course, that feeling is never going to go away completely. I mean come on we are human, but you can reduce it by understanding that you have been placed at this moment, in this position, at this time for a very specific reason. You may not understand it until minutes, hours, weeks, months, or even years later, or even not at all. But we all have a purpose in this world and it is just a matter of how we look at our situation and those around us to truly embrace it. Live Unapologetically in the life we have been given.